i just watched the surgery i’m about to get on youtube. WIN.
i can't sleep.
i’m getting my tonsils and my adenoids taken out tomorrow. hopefully this will end the consistent sickness that plagues me. so, i’ll be in my bed, dormant, for a week. then i’ll have to get on a plane on the 9th. then i will see Lachlan. and be incandescently happy. i don’t know that i’ve ever missed anyone to this extent. also, i’m very cold right now. it is...
i also realize that i’m going to read the former post and think about how stupid and pathetic i am. i’ll start writing pages and pages of contemplation for the new year. make a stupid resolution that i know i can’t keep.
i’ve been thinking a lot about today. How i spent most of it by myself in my room. how my parents refuse to make christmas enjoyable. how we don’t really have to celebrate christmas because we’re hindu. how that doesn’t even matter because this is the first year we haven’t celebrated it. how my whole family is antisocial. this is where i stop and talk about how...
i don’t like christmas with my family because we’re all dysfunctional and angry. we sit around the house and pout because we’re having forced family time together. i’m not allowed to leave or do anything even though i’m sitting alone in my room the entire day. i wish sleeping pills worked for me because then i’d be out till tomorrow.
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I’ve been a little bored lately, i figure i can do this.
Knitting is terribly addicting.
I’m frustrated with everything, Yesterday was the first good day ive had here this semester. I’ve been trying really hard to fake being happy the past week. on a day like today i notice this because everything just kind of fell. off my face. into my lap. like i was wearing a mask and it wasn’t tied on correctly. However, yesterday was the first and last good day i think. this...