today i had an interview with starbucks. i think it went really well i hope i get the job.
i am tired. i’ve been working on this ridiculous calculus manal for six hours and i’m not half way through. my eyes are twitching and i have to photograph someone in the morning. and i have an eight chapter test over plants for bio. and i dont give a fuck at this moment
andrew bird- imitosis
i feel overly anxious. terrified. emotional. irritable. exhausted.
a real post.
Today i had a panic attack and had to miss my first two classes..had an exhausting day. Calculus can go jump in a deep hold of impending doom and never raise its ugly head. I don’t really hate calculus. Walking through the halls of that school makes it very difficult to be happy..or stop yourself from bursting out into a teary eyed mess. I feel like I have so few friends, so few good...
for each person we let ourselves care about, is just one more loss, somewhere down the line. (via irrinoying)
QUESTIONS: 1. What is your name? 2. What is your favorite food? 3. What is your hometown? 4. What is your favorite color? 5. What is your favorite movie? 6. What is your favorite drink? 7. What is your dream vacation? 8. What is your favorite dessert? 9. What is one word to describe yourself? 10. How are you feeling right now? 11. What do you love most in the world? 12. What is one of...
mykonos by the fleet foxes… synesthesia....
I GOT ACCEPTED TO CARNEGIE MELLON!! AH. this is almost too exciting to handle. And absolutely ironic, that i was stressed because i thought i would never get accepted anywhere…and now im stressed because i have so many choices. but.. i got into three of my top four so far. AH AH AH.
so today was the first time Leighton and I had an actual conversation with smiles and everything….in a really long time. maybe it’s getting better. i hope it’s getting better.
I don’t paint to live, I live to paint.– Willem de Kooning (via quote-book)
Tonight was not good
Christina: where the wild things are
It’s not you it’s me by Coconut...
i’m so scared that everyone will leave me. it’s causing me a great amount of grief and anxiety. everything is moving and i am not.
I’m applying for UT housing so i don’t lose my application. I have no idea where to go. I’m so confused. ut, uiuc, syracuse so far. i find out from brown on the 31st nyu, usc, washu, carnegie in April.
Meagan!!!! i hope it’s everything plus some.
He smiled. His hand was nearly touching mine and I had a strange feeling....– Born Confused by Tanuja Desai Hidier (via letterboxlove) (via lovebot) (via quote-book)
CHRISTINA!! i am excited. five more to go. yes yes i am coming, as soon as Shelby lets me know how her work schedule is and my parents let me. well my father is fine with it.
for art: Epiphany. i have no idea what to do.
achoiceinthematter: Someone who discusses things with me instead of laughing them off or telling me to move on.
fuck i miss him. what’s bad about this 1. he isn’t someone i should miss 2. i’m being too much of a girl, this i hate 3. it’s absolutely UNHEALTHY 4. he couldn’t care less. 5. THE FACT THAT THERE COULD POSSIBLY BE A LIST TO NUMBER 3445423.
I remember being thirteen. I remember being thirteen and content. I remember being thirteen, content, and unconcerned with the trivial self-image hoo-hah that seemed to plague many adolescent girls around me. I did not choose to jump head first into a pool of negative thought and self-deprecation, but it seemed to happen with or without my consent. I am in a room. Four walls. One window. Someone...
Since the notion of college is dancing around..
of all the places i applied to- top choices 1. Carnegie Mellon 2. Syracuse 3. University of Illinois- urbana champaign 4. University of Southern California 5. NYU 6. University of Texas 7. Brown 8. Washington University in St.Louis 5-8 change daily. This waiting game is making me positively delirious. I would think Carnegie would have notified me by now, seeing as how I flew all the way up there...
oh how i miss india. i might implode i miss it so much
i would like a fennec fox. now.
what will you listen to?
because this is the kind of music that crawls...