you are every color and brushstroke

i have 14 dollars to my name. 
this is truly pathetic.

i have to start going back to therapy and i dont want to.
it’s pointless and a huge waste of money.

i’m painting a blood fluke. but right now it looks like a penis. i really don’t want it to end up looking like a penis. what a weird conceptual discussion that would be in crit.